Well, I disappeared from this space last week unexpectedly. I am not surprised. Picture me, making a *lot* of lists, then making another list to prioritize the lists I made. As I sit down at my computer to type this post this morning, I am thankful for the peaceful feeling in the house right now. Because I know that soon enough we will, yet again, hit the ground running later today. One of the big issues on our minds right now is figuring out where Emma will go to middle school. Middle school... Next year... Oh my god... Its coming fast and we're trying to think through our options rationally and realistically. Its taking a lot of my mental energy. Because that's what moms do, devote a lot of mental energy to things like that. At the same time I am spending time with Emma, the fifth grader, cause she's pretty great. We go shopping for cool headbands and cute shoes. We paint our nails. We talk about boys (sometimes, when I can stand it). I cherish little moments like this with her.
And work. I really like my new job. It feels good on many levels. Many have asked for me to give more details. There are lots of proprietary things I don't feel comfortable sharing, but I can certainly talk to the idea of how me working out of the house for the first time in nearly 12 years is affecting myself and our family, because a lot of us struggle with that. The office I work in is a small one, with a lot of good energy every day when I walk in. Its super important for me to feel I'm making a difference in what I do, and to feel good about work. We get things done there, which also feels great. Sort of like I would imagine going back to school might feel to me, the unexpected appreciation for little things that happen there are exciting. I will admit that there are days here and there when me working makes our family life a little more harried, but Peter and I are learning to work together on things like this, and that also is very good. (And I am learning to love my slow cooker, which really requires its own post, "ode to my slow cooker"...) Like the other day when I felt I needed to work a little later and get a package out the door to one of our factories. Peter jumped in, changed gears, and picked the kids up from school. Just like that. Now, of course, me being mom, and knowing things like that don't happen often (if ever) but may happen more, I was curious about what the kids were thinking. I asked Ian "Did you wonder where I was, and were you surprised to see Dad after school?", to which he, very matter of factly, replied "Well, I just said to myself, 'Mom must have had something extra to do at work, that is why Dad is here'." It may sound silly, but I guess I love that he got it and that he was not worried. Emma, being 11 in a few weeks, is of course very excited and intrigued by the fact that I work for a clothing designer, and she often says "your job sounds fun". Ian, being 8, is very intrigued by my descriptions of the sweet dog that hangs out in our warehouse with his owner and greets me at the door and sits on my lap.
I feel like our house has entered a new phase. Each of us is realizing a new role within the family. There will be bumps, big and little. But it feels like we are gaining new appreciation for what each of us contribute to the whole.
Now on to those list(s). Halloween costume to be finished, a new project for Value Village stores that I'm excited about. And, um, cleaning the house. That probably should move up a little higher on the list.

















